Attitude Problem

I think I have an attitude problem. Especially to my loved one. Someone I take it for granted. I think I am too defensive to opinions. This due to some of the following reasons.

It always comes to not enough confident. We always are in competition. We compare our jobs, our power, our IQ... We also compare our children's talent, skills... Anything you can think of. Is it sad we always define our value by using the ruler to measure and compare with others? We are in a society of competition. We always want to win. We always be result oriented. What's the point? Aren't our values are measured by who we are as a person?

Are we always have to be either right or wrong? It just likes we are counting the losses and the wins all the time. Can we understand each other and try to find something in common? Can we really be open and listen to differences? Sometime we are so afraid to be wrong or take risks and we lose tons of opportunities to express ourselves, our love to someone, stand up for our values and belief. Moreover, we become defensive when we listen to opinions as we always want to be the one who is right. The funniest thing is that we won't let other people win! The only person to win is ME!

There is attitude problem when we are in inertia. I always want to code the Isaac Newton's First Law of Motion:

"Every body perseveres in its state of being at rest or of moving uniformly straight ahead, except insofar as it is compelled to change its state by forces impressed."

Are we strong enough to embrace changes? Do we really need a push to change? Ha Ha. Sometime, we are just so used to be comfortable in these world. We don't take initiative enough and give some burst to new actions. We like stuck in a bed of sand and don't want to move even we see the world is changing and moving. The saddest part is that we pretend we don't know.

It reminds me the lyric from a song of Dixie Chicks "Landslide"

"Can I sail thru the changing ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life"

May be I just have to remind myself that I should be grateful of what I have and who I am. Embrace it.