A Piece of Calm

I haven't have this feeling of calmness for long time. I haven't have emotional build up for 2 weeks. I am glad that I have the change. I feel like the fear in my mind is not affecting me in a bad way any more. I finally understand who I am as a person and why I behave in such a way. I totally feel myself as a person. As a person of the way I think, the way I love, and the way I contribute to the world. I finally enjoy being me. I start to admire they way I think, the way I act and the ability and talent I have.

I am not calculating in my mind. I am not comparing with others. I start to admire the beauty in other people, even we see it as demerit. I am not judging other people. I see their personalities in a humorous way. I feel fulfilled. I have lesser doubt in my mind. I found that when you don't have doubt in yourself, you have greater chance to achieve and succeed. I made better decision. I feel more joy in my life. It's nice to totally accept yourself and you are not blaming yourself anymore. You accept your own imperfection. I never have that experience before.

May be it is the birthday present for my 31st.